Today I had no idea what I wanted to write about. My stress levels are high and my energy is low. I seem to be constantly stressed and tired and I just want this season of life to be over. Let’s hope things change soon.
Stressed and Tired
So, my debt is still overwhelming. I figured if I kept chipping away at it, I would be good. Well, one company got tired of waiting and sent collections after me, so now I’m scrambling to get them paid off as quickly as possible. Talk about making me more stressed. This means I have to hold back money from other things – like groceries and gas for my car. And, much to my cats dismay, this means that I won’t be buying wet food for a while, plus they are both going on a diet. Less food, and less wet food means grumpy cats. Although, they do seem to be taking it better than I thought. I’m also hoping that tomorrow doesn’t stress me out more.
Unplanned Expenses
So, my cats just turned 4 and one of them had two days where he had odd moments. It was a few minutes of just not acting like himself, and then he seemed to snap out of it, go to the litter box, and be fine. Worried that there might be an issue, or start of one, I contacted the vet and booked both in for checkups, just to be safe. Now I’m praying that they are both okay and that neither of them will need anything expensive done. If all I’m told is “they need to lose weight” that’s a good vet visit.
Tired and Stressed
Today my boss told me she was worried about me burning out. I think I’m already there, but too stubborn (or stressed) to crash. However, she has a point. Five night shifts a week is exhausting. So, we will be looking for someone to help carry that load, and free me up to do other shifts. It will be so nice to be able to sleep at night, but that’s still a ways away. In the meantime I just need to find a way to rest.
Discouraged
So, you may remember that I was really excited last month. I was so sure that when I checked my Google Ads balance at the beginning of this month it would be at $100 and I would finally get paid. Yeah, that didn’t happen. I didn’t even make $2 last month. So, not only am I stressed and tired, but now I’m discouraged. Is blogging ever going to be more than just something I do for fun?
Stressed and Tired but Hanging on
So yes. I’m stressed and tired and don’t really see the light at the end of this tunnel. But, I’m hanging in there. I have some pretty incredible people in my life who have been praying for me, encouraging me, and supporting me. Words cannot describe how thankful I am for these people. There will be an end to this season, even if I don’t see it just yet. In the meantime I must be patient, and persistent while I wait for the end. I don’t know how much longer I’ll be here, stressed and tired and discouraged, but I do know that I would have quit long ago if not for your support. So, thank you and I can’t wait to tell you how I get out of this season. And it will happen. After all, anything can happen if I try.
