Hello my friends. I know it’s been a long time since I last posted. Not for the first time, but I am considering dropping the blog. Even writing this blog post is proving to be difficult. Let me break down the struggles I’ve been wrestling with and at the end I will let you know the fate of the blog. This is my internal struggle.
My Internal Struggle – Keeping the Blog
Honestly, the idea of giving up the blog does sadden me, almost to tears. I enjoy the freedom of blogging what I want to blog, and not meeting someone else’s agenda. I love the idea of blogging about different challenges, even though so far I have fallen short on that avenue. Even now, as I consider dropping the blog, my mind is coming up with ideas for the blog for next year. This blog has helped me grow my creative side. But do the pros outweigh the cons of keeping the blog?
My Internal Struggle – Dropping the Blog
The biggest thing that makes me want to drop the blog is the huge lack of growth. My blog is not growing in followers. The only comments I get lately are scam comments. Engagement is basically non-existent. I keep telling myself it’s because it take time. Which, yes, I agree with that statement. But it’s been almost 4 years of blogging and I’m not any closer to having this blog where I want it than I was back in 2023! I wanted this blog to bring in some form of income, but it’s only done that once and other than that it’s costing me money. So, do I say I tried and give it up, or do I give it one really intentional go – being more intentional than I ever have?
What I’m Considering
I guess I am considering giving it one more year and being super intentional with it. What does that look like? It means I need to be consistent with the blog and with my social media accounts. Regular posts, reels, stories. Consistent with the blog will look like making an actual schedule for the blog and following it without fault. Now, maybe that doesn’t look like once a week, but once or twice a month. If you’re wondering why I don’t want to do once a week, it’s simply because I’m too busy. Working two jobs, running a podcast, publishing my first book and working on future books, and with plans for a YouTube channel to start next week will very quickly fill up my weeks. Fitting in more than 2 blogs a month will be tricky already.
My Internal Struggle – Fighting Laziness
I will call it laziness, but it is borderline exhaustion as well. With everything that I’m doing, there’s not a lot of down time. In fact, as I look at the rest of my year, I’m already exhausted. Now, I am coming off a week at the hotel, so that has helped. But, I now I have to dive back in as we dive into an expensive season. And I still have my debt to wrestle with. This means I need to make sure my paychecks can keep up with everything. I wish I could say that my blog was assisting with things, but it’s not. It was supposed to.
Making My Decision
I confess that I am hesitant to drop it. There’s this small voice inside me saying don’t give up. Be intentional. I know that I like to spend a lot of time laying around and playing games on my phone. And I mean, I have $35 in my paypal account because of those games, so they are actually making me money. And I do want to be more intentional next year with not letting myself reach burn out all the time, and taking time off just to recharge. Plus, I do have ideas for my blog for next year. So, as crazy as things will be, I will give it one more year. But, if there is absolutely no growth next year, I will call it quits. So, if you really do enjoy my blogs, make sure you’re engaging and letting me know. Because I don’t want to keep filling my time by wasting it. And I will do my part to try and find that growth that I want. After all, we all know that anything can happen if I try.
