Well, things didn’t go according to plan and I didn’t finish the book I planned to review today. It’s a good book and I’m invested, but I have found myself quite distracted lately. So, that leaves me wondering what to blog about today. The answer? I’m not sure.
Distracted and Not Sure
Lately I feel like I’m distracted with life. I’m not sure what I want to do with it. Not in the what do I want to be when I grow up kind of way. But more like the day to day. Thankfully, I think that is mainly because I’ve been working so many night shifts lately that I’m just tired. The new girl is just about ready to be on her own and then I can have a mostly normal schedule. Until then, I guess it’s just going to be difficult trying to figure out what I’m going to do with myself.
Just a Big Kid
I’m not sure if I told you, but I still enjoy a lot of cartoons. Right now, I’m obsessed with Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles. Am I ashamed to admit it? Heck no. I honestly believe that by fuelling the childlike nature that I still cling to, it helps me to be better when working with kids. I can get down to their level and empathise with them. Most of the time. I have to admit that the one time at camp when a girl told me she had a bad dream that her brother was turned into a chicken – well, it took everything I had not to laugh. Still can’t say I empathise or sympathise with that to this day. If I had a dream that one of my siblings turned into a chicken, I would wake up laughing and proceed to text them about it.
Summer Hopes
With not needing to do as many night shifts any more, I am hoping for some beautiful weather this summer. I want to go swimming and sit outside and actually enjoy summer. I’m not sure if I’ll get to do any small getaways, but even just getting out of the hotel and going to the beach for the day would be nice. And not have to work a night shift afterwards. I also would love to go to the park with friends and have a picnic, or sit outside and read in the sun. Honestly, I got to do that last week, I think that’s when it was, and it was wonderful.
Not Sure What is the Point of This Blog
What’s the point of this blog? I’m not sure. I suppose that I just wanted to get something out there. Trying to stay consistent is hard. Blogging about anything when your days are spent sleeping or wishing you were sleeping, doesn’t come easily. To be honest, there’s a part of me that wonders if I should even continue blogging. Does it make a difference? Are people enjoying my blogs? The other day I noticed I was losing subscribers and it got me thinking. What if this is all a waste of time? That idea is heart breaking. Monitoring traffic to my site shows that it is also decreasing. So, where do I go from here? I’m not sure.
What Will I Do
Well, like the title of this blog, I’m not sure. I think I’ll keep at it for a while longer still. With summer coming, it makes sense that my blogs wouldn’t get as much traffic because people are busy in the summer. As the one who makes the schedule at the hotel, I’m getting lots of requests for time off already. No one wants to stay cooped up. We do that all winter. Everyone wants to be outside and that means blogs will get ignored for a bit. So, I think I’ll keep at it for the remainder of the year and then I’ll go from there. Maybe I just need to change my topics, or reach out to people I think will actually like my blogs. Find like minded people, if you will. Who knows, but one thing is for sure. Anything can happen, if I try.
