I am frustrated. As days go by without me working on any form of writing my frustration grows. Why can’t I write? Is it writer’s block? Am I just too busy? Have I lost my touch? What is going on? Is my creativity gone?
Is My Creativity Gone
So, why am I worried that my creativity is gone? Usually when I sit down to write, I can just start typing and everything just flows nicely. But lately, when I sit down to write, either my book or fan fiction or even my blogs, I end up staring at a blank screen for a long time. Maybe I start typing an idea but after a line or two I’m stumped and end up abandoning the idea all together, or leaving it. I have started to come up with ideas for books, but they’re half ideas that I know are missing something, but I can’t figure out what. Let me tell you, I’m not a fan of this phase.
What is Responsible
This could be a lot of different things. I am still quite busy with work and wedding planning. So, that could be one of the reasons for my dry spell. Another is not having time to just sit and brainstorm or daydream. Some of my best daydream times have been when I turn on a good playlist, grab a tasty drink, and just drive. Again, I have not had time to do that a lot. Other things that may play a role are not having the right atmosphere to inspire writing, too many distractions like scrolling through social media, and even lack of self care. When all I want to do is rot in bed, I’m not feeling very inspired or creative.
How to Get Creative Again
Once things slow down a bit, I want to try and make a schedule for writing. Carve out time to just sit and write, even if it’s just word vomit. The ideas are there; I can feel them wanting to come out. They just need the freedom to do so. This is why I need to just start getting the start of ideas written down. So that they can develop into something more. As some of you know, I am not a stranger to writer’s block. It happens to many writers. And the great ones find a way to push through. I want to be a great writer.
Rethinking My Debut Novel
So, I thought I knew what my debut novel was going to be. The one that I’m working on the second draft for. But, now I’m not sure. I still want to finish it and publish it, but it might need some more fine tuning first. I want my first novel to be good, of course, but I also do not have high expectations for my first novel. But, at the same time, I need it to be good enough to start a fan base and have people want to read my books. Sure, the fan base will start small, but they won’t stick around if the book is terrible. So, I need to write a book that I will be proud to put out, that is a good introduction into who I am as a writer, and that people will want to read more of.
Let’s Get My Creativity Back
So, I’m not giving up. I will find something that will work. My fiance made me an office and once I am settled in, it will be the perfect place to write. And carving out time is going to get a bit easier. I am happy to announce that my friend and I have started filming! So, as I film “be productive with me videos”, I will be working on being productive. This means I will be working on my writing. And I cannot wait to dive into that era of my life; the era where I become a published author! And we know that anything can happen if I try.
